Tuesday, October 9, 2007
Prayers
I hate to sound self-absorbed, but I could really use some prayers right now! The past two weeks have been SO hard... I am having so much trouble keeping up on all the reading, trying to understand it all, and trying to strike some sense of balance between school and "regular life." I have wanted to be in graduate school for so long and I love being in seminary, but I feel like at any moment they (the admissions office, my professors, my peers, you name it!) are going to discover I'm a fraud and don't really belong here. I also feel like I spend so much time "in my head" and little time ACTING out my faith and convictions. I miss the daily interaction with my students and the feeling that I am making a difference. Anyway, like I said, I'm not trying to throw myself a pity-party but all prayers would be appreciated! :)
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OK, so I'm going to repeat the things that I said to you on the phone tonight... You DO belong there. I know it, God knows it, and deep down, I know you know it. It IS hard. It's a new place, new professors, new subjects - and it is, after all, grad school. You are a good student, and you will figure this out. You're just not as good yet as you want to be ... or as you are going to be. Even if I were NOT your mother, I would know these things about you. :-)
Love and prayers,
Mom C
Tiffany,
You do belong there as your mother said. God would not have open the door for you, if you were not suppose to be there. It will take while. And anything worth while takes alot of work. We will keep praying for you and David.
Love,
Mom B
Being slow reader,I can only imagine how you feel right now. But you are far from being a "fraud" to anyone here on earth and especially in heaven. After all, you ARE His creation and you know he has called you to do this. It's so amazing that the two of you have trusted and put your faith and lives in His hands!! If that feels so right, I'm sure that you will perservere this hurdle. Please know that we are always thinking of you both which means to me that we are praying for you always. Love Dad B
I understand how you feel. I see Bryce go through it in medical school. There is just too much to learn and not enough time. I will pray that God will allow the things you are studying to make sense and stick in your brain. I will pray that he will allow your time to almost stand still so you can get everything accomplished that you need to and yet still have time to love your husband, relax, and enjoy life.
This too will pass! Just think about what you are going to do after school and the difference you will make then. Think about your classmates who I am sure you are encouraging and uplifting. You are making a difference!
Well, Tiff...I'm not going to minimize those feelings. You've known me long enough to know that I stuggle with them, too. The thing is, I've found that I can push past them, and that helps me know that when they rear their ugly heads (as they will), I can look back and realize that I've beaten them back before and it gets just a little easier to know I can do it again. I also think God is with us in these dark times and he/she cries with us, frets with us and rejoices with us...so you're not alone in the struggle. Oh....and PLEASE tell me they haven't brainwashed you into becoming a Bronco's fan. I don't know if even God could stomach that.
Reading your post made me think of a passage in 1 Corinthians that gives ME much hope. It's chapter 1, verses 18-31. I know you need more to read :), but maybe it'll refresh you the way it does me. I love you, my friend, and I will leave you with an SATC reference..."You can't see what I see!" or maybe Mary Tyler Moore, "You're gonna make it after all!"
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