(I started writing letters to Baby Baker when we found out we were pregnant. I've kept them private but thought I would share this one...)
You are about to be born. Despite the fact that your mama feels like you are never coming, I know you cannot stay in there forever.
You are four days late. Maybe you are scared to come out.
I don't blame you. This outside world can be a very scary place. People hurt each other and hate each other and, sometimes, kill each other.
Millions of babies are born to mamas and daddies who love them, but can't afford to feed them. Or they are born to mamas and daddies who will die of AIDS. Or, sometimes, they are born and discarded.
It's scary and sad and not fair.
Maybe it was selfish of your dad and me to want to bring you into this world.
But, ultimately, your mama believes (like the famous musician sings) that, despite the scariness and the awfulness, the heart of life is good.
It's true, little one. The heart of life is good.
I believe it because this morning the sun came up. And I woke up next to your dad. And two eager puppies licked my foot as it hung off the side of the bed.
I believe it because we are surrounded by good, good people who will help you figure out how to navigate your way here in this world. Like the great Tink Tinker says, There is no way out, there is only a way through...
There is so much I want to say to you as you prepare to be born. I am anxious to meet you and get to know you and see who you are. Your dad and I promise to always take care of you and love you, no matter what. Your grandparents and aunts and uncles and honorary aunts and uncles love you too. They will be here to teach you and encourage you.
I said I will love you no matter what and that is true. However, there are some things that I hope for you. I hope that you will grow up feeling loved and wanted. I hope that you will know God's grace and presence in your life. I hope that you will be kind. I hope that you will get angry about things in this world that are not fair. I hope you will spend time making things better. I hope that your heart will be so full of love that it is easy for you to love the people around you. All people. Even people who are different than you.
I saw a poster in the bookstore once that said, On the day you were born, God danced.
I believe this to be true as well. That when you finally make your entrance in this world, the Divine Presence who creates, celebrates, and nurtures life will dance. You will be immediately surrounded by a community who will welcome you and celebrate you.
Little one, I don't know what day you will be born. But I know there will be dancing...
Love,
Your mom
7 comments:
Oh, my...
It's beautiful.
You're quite the writer...woman...daughter...mother...and I love you.
Oh, my, Tiffany, this is gorgeous. May be my very very favorite letter-to-a-baby I've ever read. What gorgeous writing, what gorgeous love. Will you be my mom??? :)
What a lovely idea to write him letters. I know he will cherish them! I also know that I will be dancing when he's born too. Thanks for encouraging all of us, along with him. With a mama like you, he won't be able to wait too much longer to make his grand entrance!
WOW!! What else is there say!
Amen.
Opa
Tiffany,
This is so beautiful! It brought tears to my eyes. We will all dance when Milo decides to make his appearance.
Love,
Patty
my dear friend, you made me cry. much love.
Thanks for sharing this, it's so lovely. I think writing letters to him is such a great idea and I know I can completely relate to the thought of bringing a baby into the world with all that is present with reality. What a wonderful gift you will give him to teach him that life is good and that love conquers all things. Congrats, again!
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